OMG. It felt like only a few days. Felt like I had no life these couple of weeks also. All I did was complain how bad it was.
This week, I could not take it anymore and with some encouragement I wrote an email to my boss telling him I'm no longer able to cope and need a helper. He claimed that he was looking for staff to help before this and asked me to bear with it for awhile. It was more of a relief for me to get it off my chest. But I won't count on his word. I think he should foresee that if he doesn't, I would leave sooner. Afterall he is only "paying us a couple of thousands for our brains". He forgot about the hands and legs bit.
~@~@~
On Thursday I was almost suicidal thanks to Sean Kingston. I am so irritated by that "Suicidal" song. Everytime Pneo and I go to 1 U's Carl's Jr, we will hear it. That day, we heard the extended version - more of that suicidal chorus! GAH!! That song would be the last thing in our head as we leave 1U.
On Saturday, we had dinner with Mr Chua BL. Pneo had promised him a dinner treat long time ago. We had Nippon Yataimura. Quick review: So-so only. I'm not sure if it is due to the ambience, we just don't seem to like that place. Or plainly because we have our usual place if we were going for Japanese and that would be Sakae Sushi at the Curve. Later we accompanied Mr. Chua to look for (toy) models as a gift to his "friend". Ahem. Oh, I almost forgot, the two guys played a new game at the arcade called Too Spicy. I don't like the title but the game seems fun. You get to kill your friend.
In fact Pneo and I had made some plans to do something after the outing with Mr Chua, but due to an unforeseen circumstance we had to abandon the idea for some other time. Sigh. Was looking forward to it weren't be babes?
~@~@~
Today, I accompanied Pneo to Digital Mall to get a new gaming keyboard. Quite expensive in my opinion but I am not a gamer so I won't say much. I ended up buying myself a new toy too. A pink mouse!
Today is also Mother's Day. But my mum went to Genting to watch Emil Chau in concert, with her friends the day before (so happening). So when she came back later in the evening we took her out for dinner at Sakae Sushi. We stuffed ourselves silly when my brother offered to pay LOL.
~@~@~
During the week also I was jolted off my comfortable seat once again with the questions: What are you going to do with your life? What are you going to do for your future? You know but what are you doing about it? Are you going to let your life be in a dead end?
I could not answer those questions immediately. I'm so simple minded. Or rather, I chose to be simple minded. Lazy in a negative view. I have always preferred a less stressed/ pressured kind of life. I would opt for the easy-going and laid back lifestyle. Since I was young, I had this take-it-easy or indifferent kind of attitude towards everything. Like go with the flow afterall I have a long way more to go. Whatever I do I won't go all out for it. I don't see the need to be so determined or passionate about what I want for the future. I had this idea, that as long as I have a job, food on the table, a roof over my head and transport - that's it. I'm contented. Further a little, maybe get married and work for a while more, get kids and then be a housewife. No brainer.
I guess I have met my "challenge". I guess this is why I am so worked up over a few questions. I feel motivated to do something for myself and I look forward to what we could have together. I didn't think I would be able to start a relationship any time soon. But out of the blue, this guy appeared in my life in an amazing way. I am being treated as a person, someone who could be talked to and reasoned with. With this relationship I have, I get to be myself and better. I truly appreciate it. I'm truly blessed.
I get to see a future that would be challenging but would yield fruitful results in many possible ways. It requires the both of us to "calculate" our future together but we would still have our own space and time. It's a long way to go and won't be easy either. But I've got him to support me - we've got each other.
So what am I going to do? I have a vague idea - working on the possibilities and options. Do some research. We'll see. Till then, all the best to you too.
This week, I could not take it anymore and with some encouragement I wrote an email to my boss telling him I'm no longer able to cope and need a helper. He claimed that he was looking for staff to help before this and asked me to bear with it for awhile. It was more of a relief for me to get it off my chest. But I won't count on his word. I think he should foresee that if he doesn't, I would leave sooner. Afterall he is only "paying us a couple of thousands for our brains". He forgot about the hands and legs bit.
~@~@~
On Thursday I was almost suicidal thanks to Sean Kingston. I am so irritated by that "Suicidal" song. Everytime Pneo and I go to 1 U's Carl's Jr, we will hear it. That day, we heard the extended version - more of that suicidal chorus! GAH!! That song would be the last thing in our head as we leave 1U.
On Saturday, we had dinner with Mr Chua BL. Pneo had promised him a dinner treat long time ago. We had Nippon Yataimura. Quick review: So-so only. I'm not sure if it is due to the ambience, we just don't seem to like that place. Or plainly because we have our usual place if we were going for Japanese and that would be Sakae Sushi at the Curve. Later we accompanied Mr. Chua to look for (toy) models as a gift to his "friend". Ahem. Oh, I almost forgot, the two guys played a new game at the arcade called Too Spicy. I don't like the title but the game seems fun. You get to kill your friend.
In fact Pneo and I had made some plans to do something after the outing with Mr Chua, but due to an unforeseen circumstance we had to abandon the idea for some other time. Sigh. Was looking forward to it weren't be babes?
~@~@~
Today, I accompanied Pneo to Digital Mall to get a new gaming keyboard. Quite expensive in my opinion but I am not a gamer so I won't say much. I ended up buying myself a new toy too. A pink mouse!
Today is also Mother's Day. But my mum went to Genting to watch Emil Chau in concert, with her friends the day before (so happening). So when she came back later in the evening we took her out for dinner at Sakae Sushi. We stuffed ourselves silly when my brother offered to pay LOL.
~@~@~
During the week also I was jolted off my comfortable seat once again with the questions: What are you going to do with your life? What are you going to do for your future? You know but what are you doing about it? Are you going to let your life be in a dead end?
I could not answer those questions immediately. I'm so simple minded. Or rather, I chose to be simple minded. Lazy in a negative view. I have always preferred a less stressed/ pressured kind of life. I would opt for the easy-going and laid back lifestyle. Since I was young, I had this take-it-easy or indifferent kind of attitude towards everything. Like go with the flow afterall I have a long way more to go. Whatever I do I won't go all out for it. I don't see the need to be so determined or passionate about what I want for the future. I had this idea, that as long as I have a job, food on the table, a roof over my head and transport - that's it. I'm contented. Further a little, maybe get married and work for a while more, get kids and then be a housewife. No brainer.
I guess I have met my "challenge". I guess this is why I am so worked up over a few questions. I feel motivated to do something for myself and I look forward to what we could have together. I didn't think I would be able to start a relationship any time soon. But out of the blue, this guy appeared in my life in an amazing way. I am being treated as a person, someone who could be talked to and reasoned with. With this relationship I have, I get to be myself and better. I truly appreciate it. I'm truly blessed.
I get to see a future that would be challenging but would yield fruitful results in many possible ways. It requires the both of us to "calculate" our future together but we would still have our own space and time. It's a long way to go and won't be easy either. But I've got him to support me - we've got each other.
So what am I going to do? I have a vague idea - working on the possibilities and options. Do some research. We'll see. Till then, all the best to you too.
1 comment:
same dilemma! was contemplating 2 rant bout it...work wise i mean...sigh!
thinkin of quiting...n may well b in the plan
n'ways...follow ur heart babe ;b
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