New Outlook, New Phase, New Goals, Renewed Faith & Hope

New Outlook
Want to look at things differently in terms of its value. To not judge everything at first glance or hearing it from somebody for example. The saying "Never judge a book by its cover" will be the motto this year. Not going to allow myself to assume things, people or situations too fast.

I have been thinking too much about the "what ifs" or "how ar?" or "is it?" or "really?". I should just think the "what, how, where and why" and go straight into it. Will learn the rest along the way. I guess you could say that I want to take more risks rather than sit on the fence this time. It's all or nothing now. No pondering.

I would like to find opportunity in everything that comes my way. (Have to learn to see it too). I want to savor the feeling that comes from the result of learning new things. Even if it may hurt or cause me pain. You won't know until you try they say. What can you lose? Pride? Ego? Face? All these are caused by other people's opinions on your actions. So if they don't like they can just go home. This life is for exploring.

New Phase
With a new relationship on board, I think I have just leveled up on my relationship communication. Going to make things work together as a team. To be open, to share and to support the other as much as possible while having our own individual lifestyles. This time also God in the picture, so it's extra special.

I managed to get a job in the industry that I have longed to get into. Though it has been quite difficult and I may have complained about it a little, I believe that education line will provide a future for me. Going to take it in my stride and learn as much as I can for something good is coming up. I can feel it in my veins - I feel alive again!

New Goals
1) Get health in check - eat right, be fit, maintain the weight, fix my face, be particular with my physical outlook and well being. I remember last year I made this a goal and I failed miserably. Seriously. Need to smack myself in the face to be able to keep this up.

2) Hope to get my lazy eye fixed - laser surgery. Friggin' expensive but I guess worth it. RM 2k but not sure for an eye or a pair. Someone I know told me that there is a small probability of getting my eyeballs melted in the process. How high the probability I don't know. God speed.

3) Gadgetry - to get a new handphone or get a speaker for my ipod mini?

4) Start bookscrapping - on my trip to Japan. Must complete it before its one year is up ie before April!

5) Have tight financial control - Pound and penny wise. Scrooge the small stuff, get the most out of the expensive/ needed items. To have discipline when budgeting. AND not have a credit card. But after giving much thought to that, have decided that I will use the credit card only for emergencies such as when I don't have the right amount of cash at hand. And even then there must be a limit per month. MUST NOT BORROW MONEY FROM MUM AGAIN FOR SMALL things!

6) Have a new appearance - nothing big. Just a new hair colour and leave it to grow.

7) Reduce coffee intake - every month, I shall reduce 1 day's cuppa each week, meaning in a month of 4 weeks, each week I will only have 6 cups instead of 7. I drink a cuppa EVERYDAY you see. In the next month, in each week I will only have 5 cups. So on and so forth. So this is going to be difficult. Yes I am addicted to coffee! And I have withdrawal symptoms when I don't have my daily dose of coffee! This is going to be so difficult people. HELP ME!

Renewed Hope & Faith
Since I quit the job at 1U and have been going to church more often now, I feel closer to the works of God in my life. Everything that happened just seemed to prove to me that God is still faithful when I haven't.

I want to serve again in a church too. In fact, I'm interested in joining the worship team as back-up singer. Need to get more info first though. I don't remember how it happened but I was given the opportunity to bring up my interest in singing. I was approached by a member to join or at least participate in one practice session and from there see where it goes. Most interesting. I was just thinking about it and there it was.

This year I am going to offer a fixed amount of my nett earnings as tithe. It has been bugging me for some time but never took action. I now feel a conviction to give a portion of what I have earned. I want to return this portion to Him because I know the job is an opportunity/ gift from Him to me - an answered prayer. Spending all my hard earned money saved during my 3 years working at 1U, in just 6 months was a lesson learnt smack in the face. So this is going to be worth it. It's not much but it's a comfortable amount that I'm willing to give.

This may sound a little crazy to mention here, but I would like to be baptised. This thought has been tugging at me since last year. However, discouragement from my mum, excuse like lack of time, doubt etc. stopped me from going ahead. This time, I am going to do it. I'm doing this for my conviction and love for God. The faith that He has given me to continue living. That there is hope in everything. For the times and breakthroughs that He has provided me, His mercy, kindness, faithfulness and patience to me. Who or what am I compared to Him. Yet He did it all for me.

Woww. Seems like a lot. Must review after 6 months. Don't want to miss anything I guess. Well, so far this is what I am HOPING to achieve. Don't take every word I say here too seriously okay? These are not resolutions either. A to-do-list perhaps?

And I give all the above to God. All the best to me people! LOL!

Cheers...