Tired. So tired. So tired of my present self. Bonkers.

I'm physically and mentally exhausted.

I don't know if it's due to work transition or something else. Ever since I started work I noticed that my health has deteriorated quite a fair bit. No rephrase that - my health has gone right down the monsoon drain in spirals. I get tired easily and common colds and minor headaches plague me. Once in a while I get dizzy spells and once I even experienced vertigo. Hey it's not as fun as the song okay. Not funny.

I was thinking it has to do also with my glasses. I think I have to change the power or something. Looking at PCs the whole day followed by reading at night causes nausea for some reason. Either, the lenses are now too strong for me or I'm totally messed up in the head.

Also my temper flares uncontrollably. I get annoyed or pissed at small matters easier than before and it tires me out just to calm myself or to relax myself. I swear more too. I hate it. Trying not to let go at people and keeping it inside made things worst.

Perhaps also it is to do with my long (6 months) holiday not using my brain nor being active in any form of sports or exercise. Should I be chased by a dog I would have died of a heart attack instead of being mauled to death.

I feel like a wimp. Yes you heard that right. A wimp. So fragile and a bit of a scaredy cat. Want to do something about it but don't dare to or don't know how to, on the basis that I'm new at something and don't want to offend anyone.

Hmm...maybe that's the reason. The noob factor.

Perhaps. Perhaps. Perhaps.

Sigh. Anyway I need to look for something new to take up. Reading is still my thing of course but I can't just read all the time. Need some action. Was thinking of joining gym or some aerobics or dance or something. Anybody interested to start something together, later this month or next? Not badminton larr. I need overall movement. And not so pricey. Want to save up for the lack of funds after the 6 months.

Am also interested in taking up a language course. Was thinking Mandarin. Japanese would be fun though. But I've also thought of English. Yes. I want to revise me English badly. I can't write in a decent fashion. My sentence structures are all messed up from the tenses to grammar to word usage and whatever there is to English. Don't forget speaking. I suck. Manglish is so part of my system it's difficult to speak proper English once more. What the. No thanks to my previous job. Fools. No, I am the fool. Tsk tsk tsk. I'm an idiot. How he bloody heck am I supposed to re-learn English? *shake head*

Whatever. Will think of something once I settle in with work and its systems and logistics and mechanisms. Yuck! Let's hope I don't dislike my job on a long run.

In which right after I will join an exercise regime and then maybe take up a language course regardless Mandarin, Japanese or English as well as start bookscrapping. Wait, scrapbooking? Err...scrapping book? ARGH!!

CAN'T WAIT FOR CHRISTMAS!!

Crapzoids. I need money to do all the above. *droops head at the thought*