Roadblock/ detour.

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Before I continue with the next few days posts of my Japan trip, I just want to say thank you to a few people whom have/ had helped me in a impactful way spiritually. Why?

Well today I asked the Holy Spirit to prepare my heart before going to church and He sent me a message: If you're lost and you looked then you will find Me, time after time. If you fall I will catch you as I will be waiting time after time. It's from a song by Cindi Lauper. That came on the radio just after asking for divine help.

I went to church today with the desire to wait upon the LORD to tell me something. Instead during worship, he told me to just be thankful and be contented with what you already have. Just let go of your anxiety to Me and I will light the way for you, He says. Just follow me.

Today also, the sermon for the day was on calling. There were 4 types of calling: everyday calling, special calling, specific calling and occupational calling. Whichever way, there is only one commonality and that is faithfulness. In all you do just be faithful to the LORD. I guess that is just what I have to do for the time being.

Here are my shout outs to them who are now in my mind as I am going through a spiritual turmoil in my heart at this period:

Joey Chia who is now in Perth Australia:
My cell leader (and always will be) I want to thank you for being the first ever person to acknowledge me that I can do it. Thank you for believing that even though I am so new and so raw in my walk with God, you encouraged and pushed me out of my comfort zone and made me a strong person. 5 years as Christian though when when I think of it, I have slacked and even lost myself, I have in my heart the thought that if I can just believe in my ownself that I can do it, then others will see that too. Thank you for praying for me all those times to bring me up to a higher level in my walk with God and that in a way had allowed me to tap into the realm of the Holy Spirit. Thank you for pushing me to do things in which I am afraid to do and it is through you that I learnt how to reduce procrastination. Indeed, that the LORD is good and He had provided me with the strength and the wisdom to get out of that "habit" of mine but it was through you that you have waken me from that. You inspire and encouraged me to use the power of prayer to change behaviours within me that may seem impossible to do. Until this day, whenever I work and there is a dateline to follow or a work that has to be done, I remember you. I remember your bubbly and cheerful, yet strict and firm expression whenever you see me make a mistake. Initiative you will say. And very quickly I will learn. I remember also that you were the one who thought/edify me, "you have to do your best in all the small things first. Because when you cannot achieve or master the small things, how do you achieve or master the bigger things? " I live by this line in everything that I do, Joey. Start with the small stuff then proceed with confidence to do the big stuff. As a cell leader, you had to made sure that everybody was cared for. There were so many poeple you needed to "take care" of but you chose to pay more attention to me and I gained a level up to be cell intern. I thank you so much for giving me the opportunity to learn from you yet allowing me to do things my style. And that had made me who I am today. I did not become a cell intern back here in Malaysia or be someone in a church. But I did make an impact at my workplace as a senior in my department. I have trained 3 persons under me and even my immediate superior has given me praise for my encouraging abilitites. Praise the LORD. Thank you very much, Joey.

Wei Quan who is now married to Li Miin in Singapore:
I want to thank you for showing me what it is like to be on fire for God. You are the epitome of the term "be undignified for God". I've seen crazy people doing crazy things but for a different cause, but you, you are crazy only for our Daddy in heaven! I learnt what it is like to be zealous for God. I learnt what it is like to worship and praise the LORD without holding back. I thank you for being an example to us younger people that we are doing it for God and God alone. I thank you for being an example of courage under pressure. Pressure from people. Thank you for being an example of confidence in the eyes of people who are willing to stop whatever they are doing to listen to what one has to say. Thank you for showing me how to be thick skinned when I know I am right and not afraid to stand up for it. You are an inspiration to be courageous and bold when people look down on me because they do not know what I can do. Thank you "tai khor"!

Christina Ng, who is now in Penang and one of the "growing up group":
Thank you Chris for being the one to initiate me to look to the LORD for comfort just after my father's death because through you I am saved and redeemed. Thank you for being the blessing that God had put in my path. Thank you for being an example of the term ambitious for God and not to give up. Thank you for being an example of determination under circumstances. You have thought me to stop whining and be brave and "Just do it". I still remember you informing me about communion and what it generally is. Thank you for being who you are as a friend who is so full of Christ and darn proud of it! Thank you, Chris.

Bee Lee, who is by far the most entertaining in the "growing up group":
Thank you Beels for not giving up on me in my endeavours to fight laziness from going to church. Thank you for being an encouragement in my walk to fight back excuses from not going to church. I thank you for just being there when I needed a friend to talk to and thank you for giving me advice. Thank you for being the one to "smack" me out of my senses and made me realise that the relationship I am now in is not the one that God have in mind for me. Thank you for unknowingly made me realise that I have sinned greatly against God. Thank you for teaching me the idea that there is still hope in being single. Now all I have to do is find the courage to take the next step. Thank you Beels.

Last but not least, to Melvin Goh who is now doing his NS in Singapore:
Thank you Melvin for posting up your thoughts and writings on anything and everything to do with God. I have been reading your blog for a few days now and I am so so inspired to go back to a time where I was so proud of myself for being who I am, learning and doing all the things that is anything and everything to do with God. I want to thank you for letting me be the proud owner of Mur-Z the 1st. The white teddy bear that you made for me on behalf of all the other members of Murdoch Zone just before I left for home. Thank you for helping me remember the good old days as part of the expansion of Murdoch Zone's cell groups. Thank you for being the young kid who was so cheerful and so inspirational to everyone. Thank you for allowing me to treat you like a "little brother" at one point in time in my heart. I am sorry I had not been keeping in touch with most of you. I am also sorry for not being able to attend Wei Quan and Li Miin's wedding. I feel really bad about it and knowing that it is by unintentional circumstances makes it even worst. But I thank you for being such an inspiration the most, seeing you grow up in the LORD, and under His watchful eye. The LORD is good and He is just.

And I want to thank Beatrice Wang for being a real blessing just around the time I was about to leave the old company. Thank you for being an angel who came to my rescue. I had come to a point in time where I thought I have lost all hope of looking for old friends from Zion because I was not able to attend Wei Quan and Li Miin's wedding. And because through you and through your blog I was able to find out what happened to some of the people we knew from Murdoch Zone. Thank you for enabling me to catch up on happenings in your life and that of others as well. Thank you Beatrice.

Above all, thank you Jesus. Thank you for being you. For without you, life is meaningless. Forever and ever grateful. You're my eternal flame. Thank you Jesus.