This year's Christmas for me was a mix of feelings and happenings - the awesome, the good, the bad and the ugly.
December started with an awesome time with the boyfriend up in Genting. It was our getaway together to celebrate his birthday and well, just to relax after a tiring year. We stayed in Theme Park Hotel for two nights and we promised ourselves to not stay there again. Quality time well spent though.
A lot of money was coming out my pockets but I was looking forward to my first bonus payout this year. I missed the last two since the unstable career and life-decision-making step I took to Australia (which ended up more of a sabbatical than realistic decision making). Which made me think, the only good thing about spending money on the 'wants' is the liberation - that great knowing that you made it on your own and you are allowed to spend your earnings, realistically and wisely, without hesitation and no feelings of guilt. Don't you just love to buy stuff? You know I do. And I'm sure you do too!
After that great getaway, I came back to work rather tired for some reason. Possibly from the traveling. Although I didn't get sick, I think my body was tired from being focused on the driving. Those few days after was when I was very disturbed by a colleague.
As we were in talks about putting up the Christmas decorations together, we took a break first as my other duties and tasks were my priority. However, she was quick to point finger at me when another colleague questioned her for not putting up her part of the decor. She was rude and selfishly accusing me of being the fault of her delay. She refused to listen and kept repeating her reasons. I reached my boiling point and shouted at her. I didn't care.
I knew she was always a problem. Yet I tried to be friends with her so that my working experience in the department will be more efficient and smooth. I tried to create a better working relationship with her. That's why I am so upset and disappointed with this incident. I got angry and came to a point where I will no longer want to care about it anymore. At this juncture, I did not bother to even touch the Christmas tree or any other pieces of decoration. She and another colleague finished up the tree and I must say they did the lousiest job ever! They only filled up three-quarters of the tree visible from the corner of the wall. What a shame. If anyone were to ask me about the decorations, I will not say I have a hand in it. That's that.
I felt better again when it was close to Christmas. On the Eve of Christmas the boyfriend came along with us for family dinner. We planned it all well and was out early to avoid traffic jams. We were hoping to be at Chili's 1Utama by 7pm.
However, the car my brother drove hit another car which was coming out from a side road. A whole lot of negotiation and moving around between the house and the workshop, finally we reached 1 Utama. We were far from our schedule but got a table nonetheless. Thankfully, the atmosphere changed from pensive to happy quite quickly as the food that day was good! Definitely a lot better than going to Victoria Station or The Ship on such festive occasions.
And with that, a weekend of festivity started. I took the opportunity the following day to rest and did some housework. But in the evening we made our way to Sungai Buloh for my cousin's house warming cum Christmas party. We almost got lost but somehow managed thanks to my bro's GPS as extra navigation. In terms of food intake, I was careful to pick little of what was served. I told myself that the eating from the festivities must not cause me to feel regret. And that was what I did, successfully!
I did the same at my neighbour's, who is also a schoolmate's, wedding. It was held at the Park Royale Hotel. It was quite a lavish wedding. The food was not bad and I met with some old schoolmates. The groom gave quite a humorous speech too. The band playing that night was really entertaining and in fact quite good. They jazzed up the evergreen and old love songs in both English and Chinese. And we got glass coasters as gifts! It was a lavish wedding indeed.
In the week after Christmas I had to send my car for it's second free servicing. While it was being worked on I went shopping and spent a lot at a boutique in the Curve called Elements. I'm quite happy that I am able to get new work clothes which could double as chic casual. I hoped that the bonus was enough for me to pay off the earlier debts and the new purchase.
And fortunately, the bonus did come. I'm really thankful and grateful to God for providing me the strength and wisdom to perform well enough at work to get the rewards that I deserve. I know it may sound rather arrogant but really, if one doesn't work hard one would get nothing. Life isn't easy and for my case, I have to work harder to earn a decently comfortable enough life plus pay up debts and still able to save.
But in all these things, I am still truly blessed. The year 2010 went like a breeze. Fast enough to say that I survived it while learning new things be it experiences and pressures from work, building relationships with colleagues and loved ones, man-up on my fitness and then finding out I suck at will-power and discipline, re-learning to consolidate my finances with much conscious effort, seeing friends moving on to the next stage of life and telling myself I need to grow up, just to name a few.
I just hope and pray that 2011 will be good if not better. I hope to be able to implement any plans or goals set. And that the plans and goals are wisely envisioned and realistic enough for me to achieve. I know for one, my health is still the priority. This time not just physically but also mentally and emotionally. I will not push myself to go for that little more.
This year I'm going to think more about me, myself and I. It's not so much about being selfish but to think less about the 'big picture' for others. My position at work gives me no room for that kind of big responsibility so why sacrifice my energy there when I can put more effort at improving myself for another day? I shall channel my passion on making my life more meaningful, giving to others and to where it matters.
For the joy of the Lord is my strength (Nehemiah 8:10). He is my strength and my shield. My heart trusts in Him, and He helps me. My heart leaps for joy, and with my song I praise Him (Psalm 28:7).
Happy New Year 2011 to all. May the Lord bless you and all your endeavors for the year.
December started with an awesome time with the boyfriend up in Genting. It was our getaway together to celebrate his birthday and well, just to relax after a tiring year. We stayed in Theme Park Hotel for two nights and we promised ourselves to not stay there again. Quality time well spent though.
A lot of money was coming out my pockets but I was looking forward to my first bonus payout this year. I missed the last two since the unstable career and life-decision-making step I took to Australia (which ended up more of a sabbatical than realistic decision making). Which made me think, the only good thing about spending money on the 'wants' is the liberation - that great knowing that you made it on your own and you are allowed to spend your earnings, realistically and wisely, without hesitation and no feelings of guilt. Don't you just love to buy stuff? You know I do. And I'm sure you do too!
After that great getaway, I came back to work rather tired for some reason. Possibly from the traveling. Although I didn't get sick, I think my body was tired from being focused on the driving. Those few days after was when I was very disturbed by a colleague.
As we were in talks about putting up the Christmas decorations together, we took a break first as my other duties and tasks were my priority. However, she was quick to point finger at me when another colleague questioned her for not putting up her part of the decor. She was rude and selfishly accusing me of being the fault of her delay. She refused to listen and kept repeating her reasons. I reached my boiling point and shouted at her. I didn't care.
I knew she was always a problem. Yet I tried to be friends with her so that my working experience in the department will be more efficient and smooth. I tried to create a better working relationship with her. That's why I am so upset and disappointed with this incident. I got angry and came to a point where I will no longer want to care about it anymore. At this juncture, I did not bother to even touch the Christmas tree or any other pieces of decoration. She and another colleague finished up the tree and I must say they did the lousiest job ever! They only filled up three-quarters of the tree visible from the corner of the wall. What a shame. If anyone were to ask me about the decorations, I will not say I have a hand in it. That's that.
I felt better again when it was close to Christmas. On the Eve of Christmas the boyfriend came along with us for family dinner. We planned it all well and was out early to avoid traffic jams. We were hoping to be at Chili's 1Utama by 7pm.
However, the car my brother drove hit another car which was coming out from a side road. A whole lot of negotiation and moving around between the house and the workshop, finally we reached 1 Utama. We were far from our schedule but got a table nonetheless. Thankfully, the atmosphere changed from pensive to happy quite quickly as the food that day was good! Definitely a lot better than going to Victoria Station or The Ship on such festive occasions.
And with that, a weekend of festivity started. I took the opportunity the following day to rest and did some housework. But in the evening we made our way to Sungai Buloh for my cousin's house warming cum Christmas party. We almost got lost but somehow managed thanks to my bro's GPS as extra navigation. In terms of food intake, I was careful to pick little of what was served. I told myself that the eating from the festivities must not cause me to feel regret. And that was what I did, successfully!
I did the same at my neighbour's, who is also a schoolmate's, wedding. It was held at the Park Royale Hotel. It was quite a lavish wedding. The food was not bad and I met with some old schoolmates. The groom gave quite a humorous speech too. The band playing that night was really entertaining and in fact quite good. They jazzed up the evergreen and old love songs in both English and Chinese. And we got glass coasters as gifts! It was a lavish wedding indeed.
In the week after Christmas I had to send my car for it's second free servicing. While it was being worked on I went shopping and spent a lot at a boutique in the Curve called Elements. I'm quite happy that I am able to get new work clothes which could double as chic casual. I hoped that the bonus was enough for me to pay off the earlier debts and the new purchase.
And fortunately, the bonus did come. I'm really thankful and grateful to God for providing me the strength and wisdom to perform well enough at work to get the rewards that I deserve. I know it may sound rather arrogant but really, if one doesn't work hard one would get nothing. Life isn't easy and for my case, I have to work harder to earn a decently comfortable enough life plus pay up debts and still able to save.
But in all these things, I am still truly blessed. The year 2010 went like a breeze. Fast enough to say that I survived it while learning new things be it experiences and pressures from work, building relationships with colleagues and loved ones, man-up on my fitness and then finding out I suck at will-power and discipline, re-learning to consolidate my finances with much conscious effort, seeing friends moving on to the next stage of life and telling myself I need to grow up, just to name a few.
I just hope and pray that 2011 will be good if not better. I hope to be able to implement any plans or goals set. And that the plans and goals are wisely envisioned and realistic enough for me to achieve. I know for one, my health is still the priority. This time not just physically but also mentally and emotionally. I will not push myself to go for that little more.
This year I'm going to think more about me, myself and I. It's not so much about being selfish but to think less about the 'big picture' for others. My position at work gives me no room for that kind of big responsibility so why sacrifice my energy there when I can put more effort at improving myself for another day? I shall channel my passion on making my life more meaningful, giving to others and to where it matters.
For the joy of the Lord is my strength (Nehemiah 8:10). He is my strength and my shield. My heart trusts in Him, and He helps me. My heart leaps for joy, and with my song I praise Him (Psalm 28:7).
Happy New Year 2011 to all. May the Lord bless you and all your endeavors for the year.
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