A lot of thinking has been going through my mind of late. Perhaps I'm just anxious or worried about what's going to happen in a month or so. My mind is a bit messy now but am hopeful that God will pull me through the phases.
In his heart a man plans his course, but the LORD determines his steps - Proverbs 16:9.
My uncle said this to me again the other day - "just rip off the rear mirror!". How easy it is to say. The problem is I can't see what's in front also. All I know is I have a ticket to somewhere and whatever is going to be at the destination is very much unknown or not confirmed and time is running up.
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My boss was not around on Wednesday and thought I'd leave for lunch earlier. I wanted to get Pneo for lunch (and we do go for lunch often on week days) but for some reason his phone was switched off. I couldn't get on MSN either so there was no way of contacting him. I proceeded to leave for his office anyway. Went up all the way to his office, rang the bell and was greeted by some guy. I was a bit anxious because he might be the boss! Eep.
Told him I was looking for Pneo and well the whole conversation on why phone not on and yadda yadda ensued albeit in whispers. He had a meeting since the morning and they were not done yet. Of course, anyone in their right mind would have have left the situation as it is. I told Pneo that I should go and we can have lunch the following day.
To my surprise he insisted that I wait for a while and he will talk to his boss. I was freaking out by then because the meeting was still on so how was it that you could ask the boss to excuse you! A few minutes later he came out and said we could go for lunch. I was dumbfounded for a moment and I had to ask again.
It was a big meeting with some important players in a collaboration Pneo's boss was working on. The main person was a local VIP in finance. And what bothered me most was the fact that Pneo was very excited about this meeting as he would be able to meet new people in videography and audio productions. It's one of those chance/opportunity situations one can't miss. And I knew how much Pneo was into filming and production. So I kept telling him to go back inside but he said I've come all the way and he didn't have the heart to ask me to leave.
Now I felt really bad even when we got in the car. I couldn't stop telling him that this was important and a big deal for him. It had to do with his career but he calmly told me it was all right. He made a joke that because of me he was making sacrifices. I retorted saying he should go back up then because I don't want to be accused of spoiling things for him.
But then he mentioned that family comes first. Even if his boss were to ask him anything about this, his response would be that family comes first. When I heard that I just shut up and smile. (We did rush through lunch on the hopes that Pneo could still catch up with the group, in which he did) And I couldn't stop smiling the whole day after that. ^_^
Later that day, Pneo told me that his boss did ask. I wasn't clear on what was asked and what Pneo actually said but I laughed when Pneo told me his boss said, "Oh yeah, better go if not she get angry." I wonder...
~@
Have you ever felt so strongly towards a person you can't stop thinking about him or her? You think about everything imaginable under the sun that both of you could do together. You reminisce about the things that had been done together. You think about the future possibilities the two of you can have together. You think about the nice things that the other had done for you or had said to you and smile. You think about the times when things didn't really go right or you both get annoyed with one another and then you get upset or even cry. You think about the times when you wait anxiously for a call or a message from the other, where if you get something you become so happy you can't sleep because you can't stop smiling. But if you don't get anything you try to beat or psyche yourself and say "whatever!" and try to sleep but then you can't. And you assure yourself that if the other wishes you goodnight and/or sweet dreams you will have a good night's rest or real sweet dreams.
You give your fullest attention to that person when you can and when you are with each other and you wait for that person to give you his or her fullest attention too. A smile, a pat, a hug, a kiss or any kind of affection shown by the other can make you feel like you mean the world to them or makes you feel like you can do anything. You try to do as much as you can for that person even if it may get in your way or not the usual things you would do. You feel jealous when the other talks about someone or something else. And sometimes you feel like you want to get or unknowingly made the other jealous or worry about you, because it tells you that he or she is anxious about you too. You worry when the other is not feeling well physically, mentally or emotionally. And you try to not show so much of these feelings because you have your pride or ego but then you do more unnecessary damage instead.
You feel annoyed sometimes with the other's idiosyncrasies or how they handle certain things but you get over it in a while. Yet sometimes when you feel like you want to kill that person or feel really down with the way things are going or are not going, and you ask yourself how the hell did you get into this, you can still find the reason why you want to be with that person in the first place.
It's crazy. It's kind of stupid too sometimes. But that's love ya'll. I'd rather have done and gone through all the above then to never love or never be loved at all. 1 Corinthians 13.
~@
I'm not sure if it is actually appropriate to put up but I thought this was funny...almost lovable.
"Don't worry...He'll be back!"
In his heart a man plans his course, but the LORD determines his steps - Proverbs 16:9.
My uncle said this to me again the other day - "just rip off the rear mirror!". How easy it is to say. The problem is I can't see what's in front also. All I know is I have a ticket to somewhere and whatever is going to be at the destination is very much unknown or not confirmed and time is running up.
~@
My boss was not around on Wednesday and thought I'd leave for lunch earlier. I wanted to get Pneo for lunch (and we do go for lunch often on week days) but for some reason his phone was switched off. I couldn't get on MSN either so there was no way of contacting him. I proceeded to leave for his office anyway. Went up all the way to his office, rang the bell and was greeted by some guy. I was a bit anxious because he might be the boss! Eep.
Told him I was looking for Pneo and well the whole conversation on why phone not on and yadda yadda ensued albeit in whispers. He had a meeting since the morning and they were not done yet. Of course, anyone in their right mind would have have left the situation as it is. I told Pneo that I should go and we can have lunch the following day.
To my surprise he insisted that I wait for a while and he will talk to his boss. I was freaking out by then because the meeting was still on so how was it that you could ask the boss to excuse you! A few minutes later he came out and said we could go for lunch. I was dumbfounded for a moment and I had to ask again.
It was a big meeting with some important players in a collaboration Pneo's boss was working on. The main person was a local VIP in finance. And what bothered me most was the fact that Pneo was very excited about this meeting as he would be able to meet new people in videography and audio productions. It's one of those chance/opportunity situations one can't miss. And I knew how much Pneo was into filming and production. So I kept telling him to go back inside but he said I've come all the way and he didn't have the heart to ask me to leave.
Now I felt really bad even when we got in the car. I couldn't stop telling him that this was important and a big deal for him. It had to do with his career but he calmly told me it was all right. He made a joke that because of me he was making sacrifices. I retorted saying he should go back up then because I don't want to be accused of spoiling things for him.
But then he mentioned that family comes first. Even if his boss were to ask him anything about this, his response would be that family comes first. When I heard that I just shut up and smile. (We did rush through lunch on the hopes that Pneo could still catch up with the group, in which he did) And I couldn't stop smiling the whole day after that. ^_^
Later that day, Pneo told me that his boss did ask. I wasn't clear on what was asked and what Pneo actually said but I laughed when Pneo told me his boss said, "Oh yeah, better go if not she get angry." I wonder...
~@
Have you ever felt so strongly towards a person you can't stop thinking about him or her? You think about everything imaginable under the sun that both of you could do together. You reminisce about the things that had been done together. You think about the future possibilities the two of you can have together. You think about the nice things that the other had done for you or had said to you and smile. You think about the times when things didn't really go right or you both get annoyed with one another and then you get upset or even cry. You think about the times when you wait anxiously for a call or a message from the other, where if you get something you become so happy you can't sleep because you can't stop smiling. But if you don't get anything you try to beat or psyche yourself and say "whatever!" and try to sleep but then you can't. And you assure yourself that if the other wishes you goodnight and/or sweet dreams you will have a good night's rest or real sweet dreams.
You give your fullest attention to that person when you can and when you are with each other and you wait for that person to give you his or her fullest attention too. A smile, a pat, a hug, a kiss or any kind of affection shown by the other can make you feel like you mean the world to them or makes you feel like you can do anything. You try to do as much as you can for that person even if it may get in your way or not the usual things you would do. You feel jealous when the other talks about someone or something else. And sometimes you feel like you want to get or unknowingly made the other jealous or worry about you, because it tells you that he or she is anxious about you too. You worry when the other is not feeling well physically, mentally or emotionally. And you try to not show so much of these feelings because you have your pride or ego but then you do more unnecessary damage instead.
You feel annoyed sometimes with the other's idiosyncrasies or how they handle certain things but you get over it in a while. Yet sometimes when you feel like you want to kill that person or feel really down with the way things are going or are not going, and you ask yourself how the hell did you get into this, you can still find the reason why you want to be with that person in the first place.
It's crazy. It's kind of stupid too sometimes. But that's love ya'll. I'd rather have done and gone through all the above then to never love or never be loved at all. 1 Corinthians 13.
~@
I'm not sure if it is actually appropriate to put up but I thought this was funny...almost lovable.
"Don't worry...He'll be back!"
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