Hapsad. Sadpy. Shadpy.
No it's not the feeling of stoned. I am actually feeling both emotions at the same time. Both extremes at once. Weird. And wicked.
What's wrong with me?!
Where do I start this evening? Hmmm...
A few days ago the person whom I work with for the China account was extra nice to me. She talked to me kindly and even gave me chocolate and a cute/ girly pen she brought back from China and allowed me to choose colour. But I was smart to say that she should pick out the one she likes first. It's rarely that she will be in a good mood when I have to see her. That's a first.
Had an interesting dinner with Mr. Chua and his girlfriend, finonymous and Zee, and piggywiggy on Wednesday. As usual we will gang-up on Mr. Chua but we did not expect his girlfriend to be the more out-spoken on his idiosyncracies LOL! Nevertheless, we feel happy for you Mr. Chua. A first for Mr. Chua.
I had my first taste of plain Egg McMuffin this morning, at Mc's Damansara Uptown. Tasted so good with the fresh melted cheese. Damn. If only I bothered to add tomato sauce onto it - would have brought back the taste of the original and ever famous McEgg. Yum! I loved that so much.
I had my first taste of Teochew porridge courtesy of Pneo's mum. Had that for dinner with his parents. The whole idea was just simple and nice. Usually, in my family's household, or my mum's style since she is the Cantonese in the family, the porridge is prepared close to mashed and a single choice of meat (chicken, pork or fish) and/or condiments are cooked together before it is served. Sometimes, it can be plain and we add old school style beef Brovil or salted duck egg or pickled lettuce or the yau char kwai before digging in. Which reminds me of the Hong Kong style porridge. Which reminds me also, don't bother asking me out for seafood porridge or steamboat porridge. Eee.
Teochew porridge however, is served plain and the texture of the rice is more whole. You have a choice of either more "watery" or less (I think. Because Pneo's mum asked me if I wanted it "drier" or more "watery"). It is served together with your typical selection of Chinese dishes ie the meat, vege and an extra choice of either egg, tofu etc. You can say it is the same as the typical Chinese dinner except instead of plain white rice, you have porridge. I learnt that the typical Teochew porridge would have sour vege (kiam chai), egg (I think omelette) and some meat. Will have to try this again some other time. I kind of like it.
In retrospect, I've been in a rather good mood this whole week as I've not let my work influence my emotions. Should give myself a pat on the back.
I'm feeling sad however, because today at church I forgot that the topic was going to be on Father's day, or rather "appreciate dad day". Supposed to be last week. I did not prepare myself for the "flooding in of sacred memories into my soul". Memories of the past which I thought I have gotten over. When the church kids sang the song about how dads are supposed to care and love and do things that dads do, I just couldn't suppress the anger and pain. I remembered at that moment, only the bad things. It was difficult to try and tell myself to think of the good stuff so the best I could do was not think about it at all. I'm so glad Pneo was with me today. Would have been so lonely crying there when everyone else was happy or at least indifferent to the whole event.
How sad it is also, that my mum has been in very bad health of late. She had been having backache since post-CNY and has shown no sign of improvement. Everytime she thinks she has, she would hurt herself again. Recently, she went for an MRI scan and it was reported that she had slight fracture on one of the bones of her spine, on the lower back (Lumbra no 5). Not sure what to make of this as we have not met the orthopedic yet. For now, let's just hope there wont' be any more complications than what she is facing now.
Because of this predicament, she sometimes have a foul mood and it is affecting me and my bro in some ways. Though we try to help her as much as we can with the daily chores, emotional lashes and verbal attacks are not going to make us feel any more willing to do the stuff we don't usually do at home. Like I said it's a chore but if she was less picky and don't interfere with our normal activities, I believe we would do them with less contempt. Guys and gals, if you are reading this, do pray for my mum. Hope she will get better and able to do things normally. Not that we will allow her to continue doing the same amount of chores as before but at least hoping she could sit and stand and walk and behave normally.
~@~@~
This coming week I will be co-organising an event with my colleague together with another department. I don't understand just because we were invited to join, doesn't mean that we have to co-organise as well. It's going to be a waste of my time and my energy from doing my own tasks. Going to be busy and on top of that some datelines to chase. Sucks.
Next week also sees me going to be a year older in terms of numbers. LOL!
Damn it.
No it's not the feeling of stoned. I am actually feeling both emotions at the same time. Both extremes at once. Weird. And wicked.
What's wrong with me?!
Where do I start this evening? Hmmm...
A few days ago the person whom I work with for the China account was extra nice to me. She talked to me kindly and even gave me chocolate and a cute/ girly pen she brought back from China and allowed me to choose colour. But I was smart to say that she should pick out the one she likes first. It's rarely that she will be in a good mood when I have to see her. That's a first.
Had an interesting dinner with Mr. Chua and his girlfriend, finonymous and Zee, and piggywiggy on Wednesday. As usual we will gang-up on Mr. Chua but we did not expect his girlfriend to be the more out-spoken on his idiosyncracies LOL! Nevertheless, we feel happy for you Mr. Chua. A first for Mr. Chua.
I had my first taste of plain Egg McMuffin this morning, at Mc's Damansara Uptown. Tasted so good with the fresh melted cheese. Damn. If only I bothered to add tomato sauce onto it - would have brought back the taste of the original and ever famous McEgg. Yum! I loved that so much.
I had my first taste of Teochew porridge courtesy of Pneo's mum. Had that for dinner with his parents. The whole idea was just simple and nice. Usually, in my family's household, or my mum's style since she is the Cantonese in the family, the porridge is prepared close to mashed and a single choice of meat (chicken, pork or fish) and/or condiments are cooked together before it is served. Sometimes, it can be plain and we add old school style beef Brovil or salted duck egg or pickled lettuce or the yau char kwai before digging in. Which reminds me of the Hong Kong style porridge. Which reminds me also, don't bother asking me out for seafood porridge or steamboat porridge. Eee.
Teochew porridge however, is served plain and the texture of the rice is more whole. You have a choice of either more "watery" or less (I think. Because Pneo's mum asked me if I wanted it "drier" or more "watery"). It is served together with your typical selection of Chinese dishes ie the meat, vege and an extra choice of either egg, tofu etc. You can say it is the same as the typical Chinese dinner except instead of plain white rice, you have porridge. I learnt that the typical Teochew porridge would have sour vege (kiam chai), egg (I think omelette) and some meat. Will have to try this again some other time. I kind of like it.
In retrospect, I've been in a rather good mood this whole week as I've not let my work influence my emotions. Should give myself a pat on the back.
I'm feeling sad however, because today at church I forgot that the topic was going to be on Father's day, or rather "appreciate dad day". Supposed to be last week. I did not prepare myself for the "flooding in of sacred memories into my soul". Memories of the past which I thought I have gotten over. When the church kids sang the song about how dads are supposed to care and love and do things that dads do, I just couldn't suppress the anger and pain. I remembered at that moment, only the bad things. It was difficult to try and tell myself to think of the good stuff so the best I could do was not think about it at all. I'm so glad Pneo was with me today. Would have been so lonely crying there when everyone else was happy or at least indifferent to the whole event.
How sad it is also, that my mum has been in very bad health of late. She had been having backache since post-CNY and has shown no sign of improvement. Everytime she thinks she has, she would hurt herself again. Recently, she went for an MRI scan and it was reported that she had slight fracture on one of the bones of her spine, on the lower back (Lumbra no 5). Not sure what to make of this as we have not met the orthopedic yet. For now, let's just hope there wont' be any more complications than what she is facing now.
Because of this predicament, she sometimes have a foul mood and it is affecting me and my bro in some ways. Though we try to help her as much as we can with the daily chores, emotional lashes and verbal attacks are not going to make us feel any more willing to do the stuff we don't usually do at home. Like I said it's a chore but if she was less picky and don't interfere with our normal activities, I believe we would do them with less contempt. Guys and gals, if you are reading this, do pray for my mum. Hope she will get better and able to do things normally. Not that we will allow her to continue doing the same amount of chores as before but at least hoping she could sit and stand and walk and behave normally.
~@~@~
This coming week I will be co-organising an event with my colleague together with another department. I don't understand just because we were invited to join, doesn't mean that we have to co-organise as well. It's going to be a waste of my time and my energy from doing my own tasks. Going to be busy and on top of that some datelines to chase. Sucks.
Next week also sees me going to be a year older in terms of numbers. LOL!
Damn it.
3 comments:
I will remember your mom in prayer.
God bless and take care. :-)
Max
I still very much prefer Cantonese style porridge. Teochew porridge just doesn't do it for me.
And porridge steamboat rocks! Don't knock it :p
we'll continue to pray for your mom. Hang in there.
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