Frustrating

Good morning.

Last night I was trying out Flickr by having the intention to post photos of my trip to Japan to my friends via email. However, my very paranoid and concerned mother passed me by and started scolding me for putting up the photos. She wanted privacy.

So after much hesitation and reluctance but sheer obligation I not only removed but also deleted the whole set of photos from Flickr. Then because of that moment of "anger" I went to sleep telling myself, "Fine, I shall remove some of the photos from my blog too!"

Prayed about, meditated on it, reflected on it too and fell asleep.

This morning, I removed some of the photos that featured our family members' faces (except a few that are less obvious). This I have to follow very thoroughly.

You see, I know one can do anything when you blog. Post pics here and there. Write whatever you want here and there. Last night, as I was reflecting on what had happened and the anger has already calmed, I thought to myself, "Why in the first place you want to blog and how did it started?"

I realised that I wanted to blog because I needed a place to express my frustrations and release tension through writing. I have the ability to express myslef better emotionally in writing more than verbally. Not that I cannot but I feel at ease when writing.

In fact, the original idea for me to blog was to vent my anger and thoughts about things that I cannot explain to people. I want to share what I went through happy or sad by writing them down like a journal not hoping for people to symphatise with me. I don't want people to know who I really am. I don't want people to associate my face to the "inner" thoughts I have. It may not be a good thing. I insisted to myself that I should come up with a nickname and keep my identity as private as possible. I am not capable of having publicity like Kenny Sia.

Eventually after letting out steam and slowly adapting to this new found "interest" I start to open up and share more things with friends. I want to share happy stuff with friends such as posting photos of places I've been like Japan for instance.

I totally forgot about anonymity.

So, from today onwards, I shall blog with as little photos of myself in here as possible. I need to ask my friends, if you're reading this: May I seek your forgiveness as I ask you to remove any photo or pics that include me in your blogs? Unless you really want to share the photo maybe you can Photoshop my face lol! I would also like if you could keep my nickname as your reference rather than using my real name? I know it's a bit tedious but I really need your understanding on this. Sorry about the inconvenience. But I thank you in advance if you could find that understanding. Cheers!

I will also keep this in check with you guys as well. I will not post any photos of you guys here without your permissions okay?

Thank you friends (readers). God bless.


SOM: Suteki Da Ne