A message to one and all:
Happy New Year to you,
May wishes come true,
Happiness throughout the year 2007,
Peace upon you from heaven.
More smiles, less trials,
More friends, less loose-ends,
God bless you and family,
As you embrace new challenges readily.
Cheers to a new year - New you, new goals, new hope!
This year I don't want to say that I have resolutions rather I have some goals or matters that I would like to achieve within the year.
Some of them include starting a new path in my working life. I would like to resign from my current company and do something else that may have something to do with what I am doing - being there when someone needs help at just that moment. Doesn't matter if it is really small or quite big. I always believe in the small things and being good at doing the small things mean you are able to do the big things. I suddenly have the desire to help people find their paths rather than my own desire to find my own. I want to be able to help people not just by physical help or monetary but emotionally or being an encouragement to people.
That is my wish. I found that in 2006 also, I have a knack for coaching people. I have the patience to do that and though sometimes some people can drive me up the wall with their antics I managed to get over them. With the above, I am thinking of going into education but I have no experience in this field whatsoever. All I have is the patience and the past experience in being a student helper/ group leader at uni for 2 semesters. I still remember those days clearly and I found happiness in that. So hopefully this year I am able to do something like that as a job.
This year also I want to live the moments that come by. I want to do what I want to do when I know what I want to do is right or does not hurt other people and their feelings. This is my other wish. I want to do the things that I want to do passionately and not hide it or keep it to myself. This year will be a year where I can be who I really want to be and try out what I can be and cannot be in my own perspective not what others think I should be. I want to be different. I want to share my thoughts. I want to learn more about human behaviour.
This year I want to go to Japan. I want to go on a holiday with my own money, my own energy and my own will. I want to spend the time with my family and enjoy what I have sowed for the past 3 years working. I want to reap my own reward for working hard yet working meaninglessly. I want to reap the reward for having worked with so much zeal and so much anticipation yet at the end of it find no real treasure at the end of the rainbow. Because now I want to work for my own not for anyone else and their own agendas. I want to work for truth.
I choose to go to Japan because the sakura will blossom soon. It is about that time when I get my pay and by the time I resign the time will be right. Here's the story: when sakuras blossom it means spring. Spring means new life, new hope. And Japan is also known as the Land of the Rising Sun. What better way to start life/everything new in the land of brand new days always. I want to experience the culture and the zen of the culture. Zen meaning "placing great importance on moment-by-moment awareness and 'seeing deeply into the nature of things' by direct experience." Ooo... I find the traditional Japanese culture very rich and deep. Compared to the traditional Chinese culture (which is also rich and deep but very diverse and full of colours), I think the traditional Japanese culture is more calm, more peaceful. I also want to see the modern Japan versus the old Japan and how the 2 can still progress together. Well these are some of the reasons why I want to go to Japan. No particular issue that I want to address.
This year also I want to reset my relationship. I only have 2 choices: make it or break it. I still have the problem of not being able to decide on whether I want to continue the relationship with my current guy or just break it and move on. I am tired of waiting for something that right from the beginning have no hope on. I love the guy so much I cannot let go. Like I said before I have no reason to let him go. He has done no wrong to me but just because my mum does not approve of it I am denying everything. Now I am stuck on how to tell it to him. I am still stuck. I had the opportunity in 2006 but I blew it. I wasn't tough enough I guess. So hope and pray that God will guide me through this smoothly. If I can, this year will be a year where I will try not to be too easy yet not too demanding. If it were to be mine no matter what I do it will be mine. I will let God choose for me. And if this year has nothing for me that is fine by me as well. For I know the LORD is good and just. He will provide. So until I have done what I needed to do this year I will not open myself to new frontiers - in relationships that is.
This year also I want to get my health up once again. Last year was a disgrace. Not only did I not fulfill my goal of sleep-early-get-up-early, I end up having less sleep and more restless sleep. I even got myself a spare tyre and love-handle! My hips have ballooned and gravity was working as well. Plus I can't even walk up a flight of stairs without panting. Dang! Must get myself into shape this year and make myself look younger! Hmph! I shall not let anyone call me auntie (except me nephews)! I have just started my 2nd quarter of my life you see so everything must be new right?
This year also when I can get some of the above into gear 2 I want to do crazy things! My initial crazy thing I wanted to do was to attend the Il Divo concert with ticket of RM 500. That didn't work out because there were no more tickets to purchase dang it!! I am still kind of angry at this whole thing. Can't let it go. Grrr! So let's see what other crazy things I can think of doing. Any ideas?
Well I guess that's about what I basically want to do this year. There are some smaller stuff that I would like to do but not worked out yet. I shall challenge myself and face the new challenges without fear. I am excited at the same time scared but I believe with God's help I will conquer my fears and fulfil my destiny!
TO YEAR 2007 - COME WHAT MAY! I CHALLENGE YOU!!
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