Sadness it grips
Sadness it holds so tight
A stab of pain rushes in
Engulfing my heart
Till it cannot breathe
Unable to hold back
What seemed like eternity
For the tears to swell
Just behind my thoughts
I try to let it subside
I hold on
Not wanting to remember
Not wanting to repeat
Trapped in white walls
While the outside is black
Which is true?
Which is lie?
I cannot fathom anymore
To believe my eyes
Or to believe my heart?
It starts again
All over
Images flash like wind
Hands pulling me in
Screaming to be released
Kill the pain!
Avenge the sorrow!
I hear the words
Clear and loud
Pinning my mind to it
My body proceeds to rebel
Joints and organs revolt
As my hand shakes
My mouth stutter
My eyes closed
Oh the pain in my chest
The piercing in my throat
Muscles ache as the dam floods
The ecstasy to just release
Could not be any easier
But to see the memories
Of old and new
Before me my reason
To destroy everything
To annihilate what existed
The denial that was created
Evolving in a ball of flashy light
So far yet so near
Decided by a thin line
To forget or to forgive
Once again the memories
Happiness was just yesterday
Today it plays like vinyl
Classical and romantic
The awed child-like innocence
Shattered!
By the cursed ice of betrayal
Unable to accept the answer
Not even an Angel can save
The soul that had fallen now
It dawned
Back into flesh
The truth of pain
Is the fact that love
Caused hate
How can it be?
What have I done?
Why?
How is it so?
The questions run
Spears stabbing my limbs
Arrows slicing my skin
Swords eating my heart
Whips burning my mind
But only one soul commanding the fleet
The war in which I cannot win
For how can a noble knight
Defeat another who had a witch disquised
With the intention to poison happiness
At the extent of another
This one soul hurt me
More than sticks and stones
An invisible knife
Piercing through my heart
I can bear it no longer!
Without hesitation
The clear crystals forming
Beautiful in its own right
Yes!
I am free!
Flowing
The mind becomes clear
Numb from within
The body quivers
The soul empty
The water falls to the ground
Cleansing the face as it glides
Clear skies of white
Yet grey in flashes
Stars seem to fall on me
Beautiful
Gentle touches of heaven
Dancing on my face
What is this?
Am I alive?
Yes
Back in renewed reality
As the rain drums on my skin
Noise of a millions horse hooves
Yet silence as I walk home
This is the tears
Of a wounded soul
Even Angels cried with me
And Heaven opened up its gate of compassion
To comfort me
Yet it would take
A whole history of humankind
To heal
The venomous puncture
In my heart and mind and soul
At least what would be left
Is a scar to erase what was
And to be reminded forever
The cause of the wound
In the first place
I close my eyes
As I let the tears recede
Slowly taking up courage
Letting the peace seep through
Allowing my mind to rest
My heart beat once more
Life flows of a raging river
Wondering of flowers
Blooming by the sides
Of my heart
Paying respect
To the dead
Buried in stone
A name written on it
The Past
An original composition by purplerayn with love. In dedication to a friend of mine whose heart will no longer pine for an old storybook once regarded as a treasure worth keeping even when it had a bit of flaw. Only its memories will be stored in a treasure chest hidden deep within her soul. However, there will come a time when she will clear the dust and retrieve this storybook but only to be told in truth and forgiveness. Rest assured that the Original Author of our Life will tell your story to your future in due course.
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